Ok, fair enough. Truth back. I should have acknowledged right away and didn’t. I’ve been alternating between blushing and meditating on a response because it was a very generous offer full of love, and that’s my weakness. You are REALLY good at finding the flashing weak point and zeroing in on people that way. It’s what I dig about you. So here is mine. Deflecting is right. My feelz are set to 11 as a baseline, but it freaks me out to wear them on my sleeve. Makes me feel out of control. It’s even hard to write that. When someone does that publicly around me, I admire it and try to take notes, and practice later. When someone does that TO me publicly, I duck for cover! I’m practicing though. It’s hard. This response is part of that practice. Trying to be less white. Trying to be less like the broken, strong, silent John Wayne, Clint Eastwood types i grew up with who couldn’t deal with this. I’m sorry I hurt you. Please forgive me. Also, though, you did hit my flashing weak point directly on target, jerk. 🎯🤗
This is why your walls of text, which are “heart on sleeve” from start to finish are so compelling to me. In the beginning they were horrifying. I remember coming across the first one and thinking how could someone be so open, so publicly?! Then I realized it’s like witnessing a masterclass on how to deal with EXACTLY the flaw that so much of my trouble in life stems from. I have two people I try and learn from; an enormous jolly Viking friend I’ve known for years, and you. And we’ve never even met. That’s how much life you put into dead pixels on a screen.
I have been scribbling notes though since you posted your offer, about what would be fun podcasts, and how to respond back with love publicly, in a way that doesn’t freak me out 😊. I really didn’t ignore. Just been blushing over here, and trying to overcome a deep character flaw. I hope you will still let me respond.
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Re: Sam Harris
Date: 2022-08-20 04:02 pm (UTC)This is why your walls of text, which are “heart on sleeve” from start to finish are so compelling to me. In the beginning they were horrifying. I remember coming across the first one and thinking how could someone be so open, so publicly?! Then I realized it’s like witnessing a masterclass on how to deal with EXACTLY the flaw that so much of my trouble in life stems from. I have two people I try and learn from; an enormous jolly Viking friend I’ve known for years, and you. And we’ve never even met. That’s how much life you put into dead pixels on a screen.
I have been scribbling notes though since you posted your offer, about what would be fun podcasts, and how to respond back with love publicly, in a way that doesn’t freak me out 😊. I really didn’t ignore. Just been blushing over here, and trying to overcome a deep character flaw. I hope you will still let me respond.
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