It's strange, but I’ve felt a similar thing. No demons or voices, but a decision out of the blue to just get the vax popped into my head along with a sense of pleasurable relief and relaxation (a wight off my shoulders – wow, I just noticed that Freudian slip, and it was a genuine slip that I picked up on re-reading before posting, but I think I should leave it given the context) at that 'decision'.
Here are my thoughts on the matter and where I've landed since:
I thought it was odd at the time, but on considering the matter some more I fell easily enough back into my previous position of rejecting this particular vax, for this particular illness, at this particular time.
I remain unvaxxed, and I'm not planning on it either. I don't know for sure which way to go, so I figure I'll wait and see what happens.
The cold-blooded, lizard-brained, rationalist in me is happy racing to be second after waiting a while longer to see what happens. And the hot-blooded recalcitrant in me is happy to simply refuse to obey in the meantime, and to die as a consequence of that decision if that proves necessary or if God/chance wills it.
Why? Well, to be honest, I simply don't like this ‘machine’ that we live in, and I like it less and less all the time. Plus, I simply don't trust the mentality of the cohort of people that created this virus and their ‘solution’ for it. In fact, I really don't like them either come to think of it. I’d have to think very seriously about dying just to spite them rather than take their 'medicine' if it came to that.
Clearly there is a lot of pressure though from the 'powers that be' and society to conform, so it makes sense to me that people will experience a sensation of peace/relief through surrender to that power.
I'm a recalcitrant though. Surrender isn't something I tend to do easily. For better or worse, I guess whatever is happening isn’t strong enough to overcome my nature.
So that's my take on it. On the spiritual side of things, I'm sure demons are at play, as they always are. In the mundane world that I mostly inhabit, the demons are real, and I'm not listening to them either.
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Date: 2021-09-15 11:23 am (UTC)Here are my thoughts on the matter and where I've landed since:
I thought it was odd at the time, but on considering the matter some more I fell easily enough back into my previous position of rejecting this particular vax, for this particular illness, at this particular time.
I remain unvaxxed, and I'm not planning on it either. I don't know for sure which way to go, so I figure I'll wait and see what happens.
The cold-blooded, lizard-brained, rationalist in me is happy racing to be second after waiting a while longer to see what happens. And the hot-blooded recalcitrant in me is happy to simply refuse to obey in the meantime, and to die as a consequence of that decision if that proves necessary or if God/chance wills it.
Why? Well, to be honest, I simply don't like this ‘machine’ that we live in, and I like it less and less all the time. Plus, I simply don't trust the mentality of the cohort of people that created this virus and their ‘solution’ for it. In fact, I really don't like them either come to think of it. I’d have to think very seriously about dying just to spite them rather than take their 'medicine' if it came to that.
Clearly there is a lot of pressure though from the 'powers that be' and society to conform, so it makes sense to me that people will experience a sensation of peace/relief through surrender to that power.
I'm a recalcitrant though. Surrender isn't something I tend to do easily. For better or worse, I guess whatever is happening isn’t strong enough to overcome my nature.
So that's my take on it. On the spiritual side of things, I'm sure demons are at play, as they always are. In the mundane world that I mostly inhabit, the demons are real, and I'm not listening to them either.