For me it was a combination of logic, morals, and spirit.
I was in Canada too. Working for a big firm in a big city. I did a lot of work that was periferally connected to big pharma. I knew that people had been trying to make mrna happen for a long time, but that the side effects were too great. I knew phama had zero scruples, but there were guardrails to protect people from the most egregious excesses. With the COVID jabs, all the guardrails came off. The biggest tip-offs were the lack of liability and the lie that the lipid nanoparticles would stay in the arm. (Lnps were designed 10+ years ago to cross the blood brain barrier to deliver drugs to fight brain cancer. They go everywhere. They were designed to.)
Morally, I didn't want to take something that used fetal cells in its development. I also felt like taking them would violate the edict to treat the body like a temple.
In the summer of 2021 I still trusted my fellow citizens. When family and friends got angry with us for holding off, I was confused. When my church said shots were required for employment or volunteering I was heartbroken. When my office said they were required for work, I was shocked.
Then I started hearing a voice in my head saying "Go on, just get it. It will just take a minute and then all these problems will go away. You'll be loved again." I felt betrayed by everyone. Even my own intuition.
My husband reads this blog and read me an entry about someone else hearing voices that were saying the similar things as mine and I didn't feel so alone. Then he read JMG's answer - it might be demons whispering in our ears - and I was surprised. And oddly comforted. Demons sounded better than having my intuition be at odds with my logic and morals.
Thinking beyond the material plane also helped make sense of weird behaviour I was noticing. Friends who had not given their kids any vaccines supported these ones. Family members who wouldn't eat a gmo apple were ok with the shots. People who would tell me terrible things pharma had done and then ask me how I could possibly do any work for them, took the shots.
I started praying for protection. Voices stopped telling me to get the shot. In my mind I heard Tom Petty singing "Don't Back Down" instead.
I felt resolute. I hired an employment lawyer. By phone I told my HR person that I would not get the shot. She said she would send paperwork firing me with cause by the end of day. I said I'd forward it to my lawyer. HR sent an email telling me to keep working from home instead.
I decided to endure being ostracized by friends and family. It was -and is still- hard.
Separate from getting the shots, I felt it was important morally not to use a fake vax pass. I didn't want to support violating the Nuremberg code or discrimination based on disease or medical choices.
Fortunately my husband feels the same. We were able to support each other and protect our child.
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branchandroot
Re: The Epiphany (A reflection thread on pandemic choices)
Date: 2023-07-18 08:03 pm (UTC)I was in Canada too. Working for a big firm in a big city. I did a lot of work that was periferally connected to big pharma. I knew that people had been trying to make mrna happen for a long time, but that the side effects were too great. I knew phama had zero scruples, but there were guardrails to protect people from the most egregious excesses. With the COVID jabs, all the guardrails came off. The biggest tip-offs were the lack of liability and the lie that the lipid nanoparticles would stay in the arm. (Lnps were designed 10+ years ago to cross the blood brain barrier to deliver drugs to fight brain cancer. They go everywhere. They were designed to.)
Morally, I didn't want to take something that used fetal cells in its development. I also felt like taking them would violate the edict to treat the body like a temple.
In the summer of 2021 I still trusted my fellow citizens. When family and friends got angry with us for holding off, I was confused. When my church said shots were required for employment or volunteering I was heartbroken. When my office said they were required for work, I was shocked.
Then I started hearing a voice in my head saying "Go on, just get it. It will just take a minute and then all these problems will go away. You'll be loved again." I felt betrayed by everyone. Even my own intuition.
My husband reads this blog and read me an entry about someone else hearing voices that were saying the similar things as mine and I didn't feel so alone. Then he read JMG's answer - it might be demons whispering in our ears - and I was surprised. And oddly comforted. Demons sounded better than having my intuition be at odds with my logic and morals.
Thinking beyond the material plane also helped make sense of weird behaviour I was noticing. Friends who had not given their kids any vaccines supported these ones. Family members who wouldn't eat a gmo apple were ok with the shots. People who would tell me terrible things pharma had done and then ask me how I could possibly do any work for them, took the shots.
I started praying for protection. Voices stopped telling me to get the shot. In my mind I heard Tom Petty singing "Don't Back Down" instead.
I felt resolute. I hired an employment lawyer. By phone I told my HR person that I would not get the shot. She said she would send paperwork firing me with cause by the end of day. I said I'd forward it to my lawyer. HR sent an email telling me to keep working from home instead.
I decided to endure being ostracized by friends and family. It was -and is still- hard.
Separate from getting the shots, I felt it was important morally not to use a fake vax pass. I didn't want to support violating the Nuremberg code or discrimination based on disease or medical choices.
Fortunately my husband feels the same. We were able to support each other and protect our child.
Heloise