Peace thank you for offering this. I saw your info on making a red amulet bag. I have Himalayan pink salt with me now, need to buy kosher, why do you prefer kosher salt / what is the difference? Can I use Himalayan pink? I also want to ask for healing energy and protection. Trying to start a new chapter with the solstice and new moon. See if after my description below, what might come up for you, any kind of advice: I had an unbelievable few years and cannot explain what I attracted / what has been following me. I hate to say the “matrix,” but I lack any other vocabulary—everything reached a climax when I was viciously stalked, raped, tricked, and definitely something/someone/both(!) invaded all my personal boundaries and space, it was like watching reality splinter before my eyes, like seeing thru the matrix and the strange, obscurity of what is possible. Why? I have no resources that make sense of what I’ve been through. Truly like a demon in many forms, which I’ve never believed in or experienced before. Precognitive dreams that happened exactly. People saying and doing things like they are on a timer, like it’s controlled. Absurd “coincidences” that are not at all coincidences, and I originally thought, “well, synchronicity / signs are good, right? I’ve been doing this for years, it must be a new development in my spiritual growth.” Nope. An insidious web of lies, deceit, illusion and no one telling the truth, when I deeply know something is wrong; people telling me I’m crazy and I’m not. I feel like my spiritual training and practice has been wiped clean because I cannot fathom how I have experienced these outrageous situations, how I believed I was safe and protected, but became very vulnerable and trapped, and super manipulated before I knew it. Do you have any advice for further protection, solstice / new moon rituals I can do. I have done vinegar soaks many times. I don’t understand how these people, and why, they went to such extremes to hurt me, and on a deeper level if it’s a kind of entity against me. I suppose it’s a game. I don’t want to play. I’m moving and starting over on NYE and am praying for a new chapter. Even wondering if you have advice for how to pray. Very grateful for the help.
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Date: 2022-12-19 04:52 pm (UTC)I also want to ask for healing energy and protection. Trying to start a new chapter with the solstice and new moon. See if after my description below, what might come up for you, any kind of advice:
I had an unbelievable few years and cannot explain what I attracted / what has been following me. I hate to say the “matrix,” but I lack any other vocabulary—everything reached a climax when I was viciously stalked, raped, tricked, and definitely something/someone/both(!) invaded all my personal boundaries and space, it was like watching reality splinter before my eyes, like seeing thru the matrix and the strange, obscurity of what is possible. Why? I have no resources that make sense of what I’ve been through. Truly like a demon in many forms, which I’ve never believed in or experienced before. Precognitive dreams that happened exactly. People saying and doing things like they are on a timer, like it’s controlled. Absurd “coincidences” that are not at all coincidences, and I originally thought, “well, synchronicity / signs are good, right? I’ve been doing this for years, it must be a new development in my spiritual growth.” Nope. An insidious web of lies, deceit, illusion and no one telling the truth, when I deeply know something is wrong; people telling me I’m crazy and I’m not. I feel like my spiritual training and practice has been wiped clean because I cannot fathom how I have experienced these outrageous situations, how I believed I was safe and protected, but became very vulnerable and trapped, and super manipulated before I knew it.
Do you have any advice for further protection, solstice / new moon rituals I can do. I have done vinegar soaks many times. I don’t understand how these people, and why, they went to such extremes to hurt me, and on a deeper level if it’s a kind of entity against me. I suppose it’s a game. I don’t want to play. I’m moving and starting over on NYE and am praying for a new chapter. Even wondering if you have advice for how to pray. Very grateful for the help.