James was real. We were real. He disappeared while I was distracted and fighting stupid meaningless crap ...and now I'm not so sure he was ever here at all.
it reminded me innediately of when anne was talking to diana, after matthew died.. she said:
“Thank you, Diana.” Anne looked earnestly into her friend’s face. “I think you won’t misunderstand me when I say I want to be alone. I’m not afraid. I haven’t been alone one minute since it happened—and I want to be. I want to be quite silent and quiet and try to realize it. I can’t realize it. Half the time it seems to me that Matthew can’t be dead; and the other half it seems as if he must have been dead for a long time and I’ve had this horrible dull ache ever since.”
..and i thought i would share that with you, because that passage has helped me, when i lost someone before.. and i hope it helps you as well.
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Date: 2024-08-02 03:15 pm (UTC)James was real. We were real. He disappeared while I was distracted and fighting stupid meaningless crap ...and now I'm not so sure he was ever here at all.
it reminded me innediately of when anne was talking to diana, after matthew died.. she said:
“Thank you, Diana.” Anne looked earnestly into her friend’s face. “I think you won’t misunderstand me when I say I want to be alone. I’m not afraid. I haven’t been alone one minute since it happened—and I want to be. I want to be quite silent and quiet and try to realize it. I can’t realize it. Half the time it seems to me that Matthew can’t be dead; and the other half it seems as if he must have been dead for a long time and I’ve had this horrible dull ache ever since.”
..and i thought i would share that with you, because that passage has helped me, when i lost someone before.. and i hope it helps you as well.
i got it from here:
https://etc.usf.edu/lit2go/53/anne-of-green-gables/1044/chapter-37-the-reaper-whose-name-is-death/
~F