Oh, my! Looking devilish on any of the planes would tend to point to having invited in a demon to dwell within you. Since dabbling in demonolatry is quite likely to cause that (if a preexisting possession didn't itself cause the dabbling in the first place), you might want to ask whatever divinities you are on good terms with whether or not you are host to a demon and, if so, what you can do about that.
Exorcists being hard to find nowadays, you might find therapeutic journaling about past traumas and whatever fixed attitudes, fears, defenses, etc. those locked in place to be a useful technique. The Octagon Society practices that John Michael detailed on this blog can be very helpful for loosening a demon's grip or even healing enough for the demon to flee on its own. Of course, the latter is an extremely challenging undertaking! Until and unless we clear away the horrors and insecurities that caused us to invite in a demon in the first place, we'll stay stuck with them. That would be the downside to exorcism. While some people do have the ability to cast out others' demons, without ever addressing the fears that caused the victim to invite that demon in, they will just get lured into inviting another one in when similar stresses occur again.
By the way, there are all sorts of demons out there that can infest people, with some being quite benign, some quite weak, some transparently obvious, and some terrifyingly horrid. Also, most of the kind of demons you would have been calling on in demonolatry would have been orders of magnitude more powerful than the types that tend to infest us. The facts that you're here asking John Michael for advice and that you experience your initiatory influence merely as an attraction to the chthonic realms would both point towards any demon you might have dwelling on the friendlier end of their spectrum.
Since your astral body is the one with the devilish affect, if you do have a demon, it's probably of the astral type. The most salient characteristic I've picked up on of the astral type of demon is aggressively competitive status obsession (oh, yes, there are quite a lot of that type infesting humanity at the moment!) Your writing style doesn't come across at all as being a status-obsessed jerk, so this too would point to a more benign demon if you do have one. Also, it is kind of hard to imagine a competitively controlling demon being at all comfortable with you practicing druidry, but who knows, maybe it’s hoping to prop itself up at the head of some druid lineage for an ego boost. After all, it really is very hard to make any sense out of demons’ logic.
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Date: 2023-08-07 11:17 pm (UTC)Exorcists being hard to find nowadays, you might find therapeutic journaling about past traumas and whatever fixed attitudes, fears, defenses, etc. those locked in place to be a useful technique. The Octagon Society practices that John Michael detailed on this blog can be very helpful for loosening a demon's grip or even healing enough for the demon to flee on its own. Of course, the latter is an extremely challenging undertaking! Until and unless we clear away the horrors and insecurities that caused us to invite in a demon in the first place, we'll stay stuck with them. That would be the downside to exorcism. While some people do have the ability to cast out others' demons, without ever addressing the fears that caused the victim to invite that demon in, they will just get lured into inviting another one in when similar stresses occur again.
By the way, there are all sorts of demons out there that can infest people, with some being quite benign, some quite weak, some transparently obvious, and some terrifyingly horrid. Also, most of the kind of demons you would have been calling on in demonolatry would have been orders of magnitude more powerful than the types that tend to infest us. The facts that you're here asking John Michael for advice and that you experience your initiatory influence merely as an attraction to the chthonic realms would both point towards any demon you might have dwelling on the friendlier end of their spectrum.
Since your astral body is the one with the devilish affect, if you do have a demon, it's probably of the astral type. The most salient characteristic I've picked up on of the astral type of demon is aggressively competitive status obsession (oh, yes, there are quite a lot of that type infesting humanity at the moment!) Your writing style doesn't come across at all as being a status-obsessed jerk, so this too would point to a more benign demon if you do have one. Also, it is kind of hard to imagine a competitively controlling demon being at all comfortable with you practicing druidry, but who knows, maybe it’s hoping to prop itself up at the head of some druid lineage for an ego boost. After all, it really is very hard to make any sense out of demons’ logic.
— Christophe