Yes, it's supposed to be that hard -- at least if you take it seriously and put appropriate effort into the work. You're not doing anything wrong, and in fact you're doing something very, very right. Keep with it, step by step, and the benefits you get as you proceed will far outweigh the difficulties you're experiencing now.
(Pro tip: every serious occult practitioner goes through the meat grinder at some point, usually somewhere in the first really serious system of training they tackle. Once you're out the other side, the doors start to open wide.)
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Date: 2023-03-13 04:39 am (UTC)(Pro tip: every serious occult practitioner goes through the meat grinder at some point, usually somewhere in the first really serious system of training they tackle. Once you're out the other side, the doors start to open wide.)