Can one be disliked by their guardian angel? I know it’s a being that exists to direct each individual on their spiritual path, so it’s always there for protection and guidance when we listen to it. It could well just be my imagination and delusions getting to me, and I’m someone who struggles with separating the wheat from the chaff in my thoughts, but I’ve had a few odd events occur that give me the sense my angel doesn’t think well of me. Stuff like the word “seething” coming to mind when considering seeking divination aid. Although my life has gone down a very downhill path of late and I fear I’m not looked upon well by Divine beings in general.
Outside of magic and planetary charity - which I already know are *not* appropriate for me - what can I do to improve relations with Divine beings?
Also, I’ve been suggested to join church on a regular basis, and part of me sees much value in finding an existing community and tradition to fit myself within. But as someone whose spiritual and life experiences do *not* fit at all within Catholic orthodox teachings and who furthermore feels like I’ve probably practiced the Christian faith in past lives and it’s old-hat and want to do something else this time (I have only one past life memory so this is more just me expressing murky feelings from my subconscious than expressing anything based on fact), another part of me feels no strong connection to going through the work, and that part sometimes wants to resist strong involvement in it. There’s no doubt deeper subconscious issues at work here. How can I work through this?
Please note that my circumstances are such that ritual magic and direct work with the Divine through that is not an option.
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Date: 2025-03-03 02:29 pm (UTC)Outside of magic and planetary charity - which I already know are *not* appropriate for me - what can I do to improve relations with Divine beings?
Also, I’ve been suggested to join church on a regular basis, and part of me sees much value in finding an existing community and tradition to fit myself within. But as someone whose spiritual and life experiences do *not* fit at all within Catholic orthodox teachings and who furthermore feels like I’ve probably practiced the Christian faith in past lives and it’s old-hat and want to do something else this time (I have only one past life memory so this is more just me expressing murky feelings from my subconscious than expressing anything based on fact), another part of me feels no strong connection to going through the work, and that part sometimes wants to resist strong involvement in it. There’s no doubt deeper subconscious issues at work here. How can I work through this?
Please note that my circumstances are such that ritual magic and direct work with the Divine through that is not an option.
I welcome Ecosophians’ recommendations.