As I was reading again the chapter on the law of impactation, more specifically your blog entry which is more complete than my CosDoc edition, it came to me that a good way to be sure that I understood it was to put it in practice. So here I try to connect two concepts of different planes: the fear of failure, from the etheric plane, and a blizzard, from the material plane. Both planes are close enough. And to be honest, fear of failure is a big spine in my skin.
So what have these things in common? They both obscure vision, dumb and paralize. They encourage seeking cover and ducking. They make me feel bad and make me conscious of my impotency. How are they different? I don't have agency on a blizzard, but I could in theory take rein of my fear, one is objective the other is subjective. A blizzard is white color, while fear is usually associated with black color. A blizzard wets, while the fear only does so if I lose control of the sphincter, which was never the case. A blizzard pushes in the direction of the wind, while the fear I experience makes me still. It is more alike to a freezing snowfall which has little wind, now that I think of it.
So, by linking these two concepts, the fear of failure impacts its qualities on the snowfall, so now, every time I feel that feeling it will bring the image of the snowfall. The qualities of the snowfall in turn sublimate, so whenever I see or think about a snowfall, it will remind me of my fears. Next, the tricky part. Once the symbol is formed, the attributes that do not fit will be attached to the symbol anyways. It means that for me, fear of failure will be of white color, it will make me think of melting snowflakes on my skin, even though I know they are not related. These attributes degrade, they still exist but become out of context. On the other extreme, the ability to overcome fear disintegrates from the symbol, since I cannot change the effects of a real snowfall.
In other words, should I use that symbol (or rather, limit myself to that only symbol), I risk losing agency over my fears.
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branchandroot
Impactation and sublimation
Date: 2023-04-10 09:31 am (UTC)As I was reading again the chapter on the law of impactation, more specifically your blog entry which is more complete than my CosDoc edition, it came to me that a good way to be sure that I understood it was to put it in practice.
So here I try to connect two concepts of different planes: the fear of failure, from the etheric plane, and a blizzard, from the material plane. Both planes are close enough. And to be honest, fear of failure is a big spine in my skin.
So what have these things in common? They both obscure vision, dumb and paralize. They encourage seeking cover and ducking. They make me feel bad and make me conscious of my impotency.
How are they different? I don't have agency on a blizzard, but I could in theory take rein of my fear, one is objective the other is subjective. A blizzard is white color, while fear is usually associated with black color. A blizzard wets, while the fear only does so if I lose control of the sphincter, which was never the case. A blizzard pushes in the direction of the wind, while the fear I experience makes me still.
It is more alike to a freezing snowfall which has little wind, now that I think of it.
So, by linking these two concepts, the fear of failure impacts its qualities on the snowfall, so now, every time I feel that feeling it will bring the image of the snowfall. The qualities of the snowfall in turn sublimate, so whenever I see or think about a snowfall, it will remind me of my fears.
Next, the tricky part. Once the symbol is formed, the attributes that do not fit will be attached to the symbol anyways. It means that for me, fear of failure will be of white color, it will make me think of melting snowflakes on my skin, even though I know they are not related. These attributes degrade, they still exist but become out of context. On the other extreme, the ability to overcome fear disintegrates from the symbol, since I cannot change the effects of a real snowfall.
In other words, should I use that symbol (or rather, limit myself to that only symbol), I risk losing agency over my fears.