Dear JMG, Something like 40 years ago, I had a brief flirtation with a lovely man. I only saw him three times and then my friends insisted I stop seeing him because he was not a criminal and therefore a danger to us all. We were working as narcotic smugglers at the time.
I regretted it extremely. I never even got to kiss him. I wished at the time that things had gone differently. Since then, every decade or two, I am seized by a sudden and violent longing for him. I then spend a lot of time daydreaming about him. I think I botched a major opportunity there although my life after that went well and I have been quite successful and even happy.
It just happened again recently but it is more extreme than ever before. He would be in his late seventies or eighty's now. He was a lot older than I was.
What I think is happening is that this is some kind of haunting. I am trying to make my daydreams of him very pleasant and successful as a way of letting him know how much I admired him and regreted listening to my halfwit friends. I am very tired and I am finding these dreams taking over at times. They are preventing me from sleeping.
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Daydreams
Date: 2023-04-10 04:44 am (UTC)Something like 40 years ago, I had a brief flirtation with a lovely man. I only saw him three times and then my friends insisted I stop seeing him because he was not a criminal and therefore a danger to us all. We were working as narcotic smugglers at the time.
I regretted it extremely. I never even got to kiss him. I wished at the time that things had gone differently. Since then, every decade or two, I am seized by a sudden and violent longing for him. I then spend a lot of time daydreaming about him. I think I botched a major opportunity there although my life after that went well and I have been quite successful and even happy.
It just happened again recently but it is more extreme than ever before. He would be in his late seventies or eighty's now. He was a lot older than I was.
What I think is happening is that this is some kind of haunting. I am trying to make my daydreams of him very pleasant and successful as a way of letting him know how much I admired him and regreted listening to my halfwit friends. I am very tired and I am finding these dreams taking over at times. They are preventing me from sleeping.
How can I lay his ghost to rest?
Maxine