I hope you have all been well. I wish I could have come here under better circumstances, but my story is roughly equal parts cautionary tale and a request for advice or help of some kind. In some ways, the cautionary tale is part horror story, as it deals with negative entities and some evil people.
In reconstructing this story from my memory (for it is years-long in its unfolding), I have tried to strike a balance between brevity and comprehensiveness. If I were to go into every detail, this post would be a novelette—maybe longer—but if I were to leave out key facts, the story would be misrepresented. I wish to do neither.
So, dear reader, I ask your forbearance at the beginning, for there is a lot of info to convey in a relatively small space.
The tale starts, as far back as I can trace it, in April of 2017. That’s when I was hit with a very powerful magical attack. I don’t know who did it, nor why they did it. The attack/curse left me almost dead, with very little energy to do anything. I couldn’t think well; it was as if my mind had been starved of energy and filled with something toxic. I felt an enormous blockage in my crown chakra but couldn’t remove it. I would sometimes sleep for 20 hours out of 24, and not by choice. No matter how much I slept, though, the sleep was never very restorative: I’d wake up about as tired as I had fallen asleep. I lingered somewhere between the living in the dead, in those ways.
For convenience’s sake, I called this curse “Disease X,” for it was largely an unknown to me at the time.
In the years since the attack, I sought help from various people—anything that might give me a clue for how to remove Disease X from myself… or anyone who could do part or all of that job for me.
I was not very successful at this attempt, due to my disabled state and to my lack of resources to bear on such an arcane, difficult problem. Certain healers and exorcists were able to help here and there, and, today, nearly eight years later, most of Disease X is gone. Not all of it… but most of it. I am grateful for the help these people gave me. A lot of demonic entities and malign magic were removed from me, thanks to the help of these kind people and because of the exorcism knowledge they shared with me.
However… not everyone I asked was kind or wholesome. I am ashamed to say it, but one of the people I asked for help, when I was at the end of my rope, was an old sorceress whom I knew to be at least somewhat evil. This was back in January of 2022. I was out of known-wholesome people to ask for help at this time, but some of the demonic entities from Disease X were still very much active. I thought that I could ask the old woman for help, and I’d be cured in only 2-3 months, tops, for she was very powerful, in terms of magical abilities.
But my asking her for help was, in hindsight, the most disastrous mistake I’ve ever made in this incarnation. I do not say that lightly. In some ways, she is worse than Disease X.
Let me explain…
The old sorceress, whom I’ll call “Q” for shorthand, is highly abusive. For whatever healing she gave me, she gave me at least twice that much in suffering, either at her hands directly or at the hands of the negative entities she uses.
The sorceress seems to have some obsession with me, and that obsession has sexual overtones. For the past two years, I’ve pleaded with her to let me go, but she will not. Being “magically linked” to her (if that’s what this is) feels like being near a black hole: She is something dark, uncaring toward me, ruinal, hard to escape from…
I seem to have inadvertently become one of her “possessions,” for lack of a better term. In no particular order, Q’s abuse toward me has taken these forms:
A) Sexual abuse in dreams / the astral.
B) Verbal abuse. I can sometimes hear her in my mind, and she forces her messages onto me against my will and with my protest. Some of the messages have been very harsh and lewd. Others, nonsensical. All of them have been distracting and troubling. For years, I have tried to reason with her via these messaging attempts, but she cannot or will not use reason. Sometimes her demonic entities will say awful things to me, including threats, projections, gaslighting, and insults.
C) Holding me in confinement (in the astral? I am unsure if this is the correct level of reality) within her “HQ” or “domain” against my will, using demonic entities as something like jail guards.
D) Psychological abuse. Despite my adamant pleas to be let go, she will not let me go, but continues to force herself on me.
E) Use of malign magic on me. Q *has* removed some of Disease X from me, but she sometimes uses malign means to do so, or she uses them on the side (i.e., not to heal, but for other purposes). Some of the magic she does on me does not at all feel good or healing, but oppressive, dark, and controlling. For example, one thing she sometimes does to me feels like filling my head with negative energy: It feels like she has placed some negative entity there (maybe herself?), and there is the definite feeling of pressure in my head when she has done it, and my mind feels clouded, cramped, and uncomfortable.
F) Extensive and sustained surveillance of me. This one is hard to describe, maybe even hard to believe, but it feels like she has somehow linked her mind with mine, or at least extensively tapped it. Like a dark cloud over me, she is aware of my thoughts and intentions. I have no privacy from my abuser and her “henchmen.”
In mid-2023, I turned toward Zen Buddhism, not really having had a religion of my own in the years of my Disease X illness/curse. I have discovered that certain Buddhist mantras are effective at repelling Q, but I haven’t found a way to free myself from her. That is, mantra-repetition can keep her at a distance and dispel some of her malign magic, but it doesn’t keep her from returning to me, and (at least so far) it hasn’t uprooted her from me.
I don’t have the realistic option of letting her have her way with me unopposed, due to the abuses she enacts when I let my guard down for too long. I have no choice but to try to become free of her, but this is a time-intensive and dangerous undertaking….
I am not at all confident that she would leave me alone if Disease X were removed from me. Because of her obsessive personality, I expect that she would continue to “possess” and abuse me for the indeterminate future, maybe even beyond this incarnation, no matter whether Disease X were on me or not.
Having a bit of Golden Dawn experience in my past, I thought to try the LBRP and LBRH, but these are not effective means of holding her back or preventing her return. (To be sure, these rituals *are* good at helping me feel better, for they clean my energy and make tranquil the energy of the surrounding space, but she is not held back by them.)
So, the cautionary tale’s basic moral, as I see it: No matter the circumstances, don’t ask evil entities for help! You might get way more than you bargained for, and not in a good way. (Seems like a no-brainer now, but I didn’t know it then.)
But also the request for help: Do you have any advice for what I can do in my present circumstances vis-a-vis Q? How ought I to proceed, in your opinion? I can do Buddhist mantra-recitation to keep her back, but this option is expensive in terms of time and effort. She abuses me daily, and it takes a long time to repel her (up to 30 minutes for each of her attempts on me, and she makes many attempts at me each day, some seemingly benign, some wicked). I haven’t figured out how to free myself from her.
My current means of extracting myself from her grip are prayers and mantras. They hold her back, and her negative entities have attacked me verbally and magically for trying to protect or extract myself from her (and from them), but I don’t know of better means than these. I am open to your ideas and suggestions.
I’ve been trapped with her for about three years, as of the writing of this post. I would rather not spend the rest of my incarnation with her. To be treated like a sexual possession and prisoner, rather than as a person, and by a demonic and very irrational human, is an awful fate.
Request for Advice: Escape from Q
I hope you have all been well. I wish I could have come here under better circumstances, but my story is roughly equal parts cautionary tale and a request for advice or help of some kind. In some ways, the cautionary tale is part horror story, as it deals with negative entities and some evil people.
In reconstructing this story from my memory (for it is years-long in its unfolding), I have tried to strike a balance between brevity and comprehensiveness. If I were to go into every detail, this post would be a novelette—maybe longer—but if I were to leave out key facts, the story would be misrepresented. I wish to do neither.
So, dear reader, I ask your forbearance at the beginning, for there is a lot of info to convey in a relatively small space.
The tale starts, as far back as I can trace it, in April of 2017. That’s when I was hit with a very powerful magical attack. I don’t know who did it, nor why they did it. The attack/curse left me almost dead, with very little energy to do anything. I couldn’t think well; it was as if my mind had been starved of energy and filled with something toxic. I felt an enormous blockage in my crown chakra but couldn’t remove it. I would sometimes sleep for 20 hours out of 24, and not by choice. No matter how much I slept, though, the sleep was never very restorative: I’d wake up about as tired as I had fallen asleep. I lingered somewhere between the living in the dead, in those ways.
For convenience’s sake, I called this curse “Disease X,” for it was largely an unknown to me at the time.
In the years since the attack, I sought help from various people—anything that might give me a clue for how to remove Disease X from myself… or anyone who could do part or all of that job for me.
I was not very successful at this attempt, due to my disabled state and to my lack of resources to bear on such an arcane, difficult problem. Certain healers and exorcists were able to help here and there, and, today, nearly eight years later, most of Disease X is gone. Not all of it… but most of it. I am grateful for the help these people gave me. A lot of demonic entities and malign magic were removed from me, thanks to the help of these kind people and because of the exorcism knowledge they shared with me.
However… not everyone I asked was kind or wholesome. I am ashamed to say it, but one of the people I asked for help, when I was at the end of my rope, was an old sorceress whom I knew to be at least somewhat evil. This was back in January of 2022. I was out of known-wholesome people to ask for help at this time, but some of the demonic entities from Disease X were still very much active. I thought that I could ask the old woman for help, and I’d be cured in only 2-3 months, tops, for she was very powerful, in terms of magical abilities.
But my asking her for help was, in hindsight, the most disastrous mistake I’ve ever made in this incarnation. I do not say that lightly. In some ways, she is worse than Disease X.
Let me explain…
The old sorceress, whom I’ll call “Q” for shorthand, is highly abusive. For whatever healing she gave me, she gave me at least twice that much in suffering, either at her hands directly or at the hands of the negative entities she uses.
The sorceress seems to have some obsession with me, and that obsession has sexual overtones. For the past two years, I’ve pleaded with her to let me go, but she will not. Being “magically linked” to her (if that’s what this is) feels like being near a black hole: She is something dark, uncaring toward me, ruinal, hard to escape from…
I seem to have inadvertently become one of her “possessions,” for lack of a better term. In no particular order, Q’s abuse toward me has taken these forms:
A) Sexual abuse in dreams / the astral.
B) Verbal abuse. I can sometimes hear her in my mind, and she forces her messages onto me against my will and with my protest. Some of the messages have been very harsh and lewd. Others, nonsensical. All of them have been distracting and troubling. For years, I have tried to reason with her via these messaging attempts, but she cannot or will not use reason. Sometimes her demonic entities will say awful things to me, including threats, projections, gaslighting, and insults.
C) Holding me in confinement (in the astral? I am unsure if this is the correct level of reality) within her “HQ” or “domain” against my will, using demonic entities as something like jail guards.
D) Psychological abuse. Despite my adamant pleas to be let go, she will not let me go, but continues to force herself on me.
E) Use of malign magic on me. Q *has* removed some of Disease X from me, but she sometimes uses malign means to do so, or she uses them on the side (i.e., not to heal, but for other purposes). Some of the magic she does on me does not at all feel good or healing, but oppressive, dark, and controlling. For example, one thing she sometimes does to me feels like filling my head with negative energy: It feels like she has placed some negative entity there (maybe herself?), and there is the definite feeling of pressure in my head when she has done it, and my mind feels clouded, cramped, and uncomfortable.
F) Extensive and sustained surveillance of me. This one is hard to describe, maybe even hard to believe, but it feels like she has somehow linked her mind with mine, or at least extensively tapped it. Like a dark cloud over me, she is aware of my thoughts and intentions. I have no privacy from my abuser and her “henchmen.”
In mid-2023, I turned toward Zen Buddhism, not really having had a religion of my own in the years of my Disease X illness/curse. I have discovered that certain Buddhist mantras are effective at repelling Q, but I haven’t found a way to free myself from her. That is, mantra-repetition can keep her at a distance and dispel some of her malign magic, but it doesn’t keep her from returning to me, and (at least so far) it hasn’t uprooted her from me.
I don’t have the realistic option of letting her have her way with me unopposed, due to the abuses she enacts when I let my guard down for too long. I have no choice but to try to become free of her, but this is a time-intensive and dangerous undertaking….
I am not at all confident that she would leave me alone if Disease X were removed from me. Because of her obsessive personality, I expect that she would continue to “possess” and abuse me for the indeterminate future, maybe even beyond this incarnation, no matter whether Disease X were on me or not.
Having a bit of Golden Dawn experience in my past, I thought to try the LBRP and LBRH, but these are not effective means of holding her back or preventing her return. (To be sure, these rituals *are* good at helping me feel better, for they clean my energy and make tranquil the energy of the surrounding space, but she is not held back by them.)
So, the cautionary tale’s basic moral, as I see it: No matter the circumstances, don’t ask evil entities for help! You might get way more than you bargained for, and not in a good way. (Seems like a no-brainer now, but I didn’t know it then.)
But also the request for help: Do you have any advice for what I can do in my present circumstances vis-a-vis Q? How ought I to proceed, in your opinion? I can do Buddhist mantra-recitation to keep her back, but this option is expensive in terms of time and effort. She abuses me daily, and it takes a long time to repel her (up to 30 minutes for each of her attempts on me, and she makes many attempts at me each day, some seemingly benign, some wicked). I haven’t figured out how to free myself from her.
My current means of extracting myself from her grip are prayers and mantras. They hold her back, and her negative entities have attacked me verbally and magically for trying to protect or extract myself from her (and from them), but I don’t know of better means than these. I am open to your ideas and suggestions.
I’ve been trapped with her for about three years, as of the writing of this post. I would rather not spend the rest of my incarnation with her. To be treated like a sexual possession and prisoner, rather than as a person, and by a demonic and very irrational human, is an awful fate.
Thank you very much in advance for any advice. 🙏🏼