My dog got sick recently and was diagnosed with kidney cancer. She nearly died in the animal hospital, but with our home based holistic treatment she got somewhat better over the course of 6 weeks. But then she got significantly worse, vomiting and retching and unable to eat or drink for days, and finally I felt horrible for how miserable she must be, thought her kidneys had just been overloaded beyond healing, and we euthanized her.

I felt at the time it was the compassionate choice as it was very hard to see her in such discomfort. But I also don’t know for sure that she was dying. Perhaps she would have gotten better, but I ended her life. I’ll never know for sure. And I will have to live with the pain of that choice and uncertainty.

Is there something you suggest I can do to work off the negative karma I’ve accrued from ending a life?

Tamar