Someone wrote in [personal profile] ecosophia 2024-09-12 08:15 pm (UTC)

Re: Subjective minds

Interesting point.

I was one of the people who said that I thought part of the reason I didn't get caught up in Cootie Mania was because I was raised by a narcissistic parent, and the covid-related manipulation tactics all felt really, really familiar.

But now that you mention it, I've also never gotten engrossed in the things you mention either.

I can watch a live sporting event and appreciate the skill and strategy of the players, but I can't really get caught up in caring who wins. (What difference does it really make? It's just a game.) Needless to say, I also lacked "school spirit" my entire educational career. Yes, if I knew people on the school team I would wish them well, and I can understand how playing sports could be fun for the participants, but in the back of my mind, I always knew that I could have just as easily wound up at a different school/college and be expected to cheer for them instead, so why was everyone so invested in who won? It all seemed kind of arbitrary. Weddings don't move me; I always feel a bit detached form what feels like a stage show to me. I can enjoy staged shows (theater, film), but I know it's not real.

I tend to find politics to be surreal as well - looking around thinking, why is everyone so worked up about this? Whoever gets elected will get elected and there will be some consequences either way and we'll have to deal with them and life will go on. (shrug)

Looking back, I've always been a bit "detached" for lack of a better word. Even as a child, I remember other kids getting caught up in things while I was standing there thinking "how odd".

I'm not un-emotional - I have, for example, cried at funerals and burials, but that's more directly related to a personal emotional response that would have existed even in isolation. (I ALREADY FELT grief, I wasn't just RESPONDING to the event, if that makes sense.)

I don't know if all of this is somehow related to being raised by a narcissist, or if it's something else entirely.

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