I'm substantially older than you are, dear Toby in the UK, but I think my disappointment in others has been very similar to yours, as you describe it. Almost everyone I know, with very, very few exceptions fell to the fearmongering like cardboard dominoes in a light breeze. Lockdowns, masks, jabs, the whole show, they were all in. I find it all so sad, so absurd. I didn't fall for this covidian crap. And I see now that there are many people who did not, either. Our host, JMG, John Beaudoin, Tessa Lena, Mark Crispin Miller, el gato, Welcome the Eagle- it's a long list, mainly of people writing and posting videos out there in the odd corners of the Internet. But I see them. I hear them, I read them. Humanity took a massive blow in this, but we're not finished, no way. I don't expect this crap to be over any time soon. It's a kind of war, a very weird one, but wars have a way of grinding on for a long time, and breaking out again here and there & there & there-- so why would this be different? Me, I'm doing OK, I'm doing what I need to be doing, I work on medical freedom advocacy and I work on improving my life in various ways, and most days, I'm having fun. It beats the stuffing out of the alternative.