In one very real way it already has. My brother died suddenly last year, a tiger year. I had thought about it often, the cosmic force embodied as a tiger that carried him away to the great beyond. It's probably why this is such a struggle. And yes, after 20+ years of commitment, I'm probably more Chinese than I care to admit. I used to call many of their beliefs superstition but I know better now. If all I can do is mediate on it, it's my light in the darkness.