Magic is for keeps. Yes, it's normal that you'll continue to feel a certain draw to those things; once you practice the rituals, and especially once you receive initiations, you have those contacts for the rest of this incarnation, and traces of them will remain into future incarnations. That doesn't mean you have to submit to that attraction and renew those contacts; it just means that you're going to have to put up with that connection.

This is one reason that it's wise to be careful about what kinds of magic you practice!