I had the moment of deep radical clarity after I received the second shot in May 2021.
Why did I get two shots? By autumn 2020 I knew three people whose death certificate said they died of COVID, one of whom was my mother. I was 63, without medical insurance (I'm in the US and we don't get Medicare till 65). During spring 2021 I watched quite a few people I knew take the shots and not have trouble with them. I was aware of the counterarguments - I usually read the first page or two of each of these series of posts - but given my age, the lack of medical insurance which meant that getting long COVID could drain our saving, and knowing one of my friends had long COVID and how it affected her, I decided I would go ahead and get the two shots. Call me naive if you like, I'll accept it, but I really hoped that it was the right thing and really would help the situation improve. By that time a fourth person I knew had COVID on his death certificate, so it may have been that having that many people die of it tipped the balance toward accepting the shots. Or maybe I just fell into the mass thoughtform and went along with it without thinking enough about the counterarguments; I'm willing to admit that.
The first shot went fine; nothing more than swelling at the shot site. I was kind of weirded out by the atmosphere at the place where I got the shot, but since the first one went OK, I went ahead and got the second shot.
The second shot went OK at first. But I woke up in the middle of the night feeling quite ill, and not just physically. Something about the second shot was just wrong; nothing I could put in words, but it was there. Fortunately the effects wore off after several hours. But it felt wrong enough that I was completely clear that I would not accept any more shots of this or any other vaccine.
I'm really glad for this forum; I've learned a lot from it which I hope will help me better avoid mass thoughtforms in the future.
Re: The Epiphany (A reflection thread on pandemic choices)
Why did I get two shots? By autumn 2020 I knew three people whose death certificate said they died of COVID, one of whom was my mother. I was 63, without medical insurance (I'm in the US and we don't get Medicare till 65). During spring 2021 I watched quite a few people I knew take the shots and not have trouble with them. I was aware of the counterarguments - I usually read the first page or two of each of these series of posts - but given my age, the lack of medical insurance which meant that getting long COVID could drain our saving, and knowing one of my friends had long COVID and how it affected her, I decided I would go ahead and get the two shots. Call me naive if you like, I'll accept it, but I really hoped that it was the right thing and really would help the situation improve. By that time a fourth person I knew had COVID on his death certificate, so it may have been that having that many people die of it tipped the balance toward accepting the shots. Or maybe I just fell into the mass thoughtform and went along with it without thinking enough about the counterarguments; I'm willing to admit that.
The first shot went fine; nothing more than swelling at the shot site. I was kind of weirded out by the atmosphere at the place where I got the shot, but since the first one went OK, I went ahead and got the second shot.
The second shot went OK at first. But I woke up in the middle of the night feeling quite ill, and not just physically. Something about the second shot was just wrong; nothing I could put in words, but it was there. Fortunately the effects wore off after several hours. But it felt wrong enough that I was completely clear that I would not accept any more shots of this or any other vaccine.
I'm really glad for this forum; I've learned a lot from it which I hope will help me better avoid mass thoughtforms in the future.