I appreciate your time as this is a bit long-winded.
I've dedicated much of my life to an art, or some might call it a craft. A few years ago this practice led me to an awakening. I had worked for a long time to improve my abilities but always felt something eluded me. I went down many seldom-traveled paths, trying to find answers to my questions but for a long time every possible solution vanished like a mirage as I approached.
Eventually I went far down an obscure route paved by great practicioners from before. It appeared promising but I found that the path appeared to lead to a dead end. I had gone to one of the furthest, deepest places and found nothing. But then I realized a peculiar commonality between the distant place where I was and the place where my journey began, and at that moment I had an epiphany.
You could call it an encounter with the higher self, the genius, the holy guardian angel. That's the best way I can categorize it. In an instant I understood my art in its totality, along with the reasons for the difficulties I had and the path that I might take to overcome them. When I had this experience I knew that the road to the place I want to go will be long and hard, but that I now have a "North Star" I can follow to get there.
My question to you is: what types of magical practice make sense for me? The spiritual path I find myself on is idiosyncratic and individual - established religions and societies have never particularly appealed to me; they all feel like something made to fit someone else. These personal experiences have resonated with me much more than any "brand-name" deities and I seem to draw power from this genius the way that people describe petitioning gods. For example, when I'm attuned to the higher self and following its guidance I have effectively infinite motivation and can make sustained efforts that shock other people, who ask how I haven't collapsed. I've intuited that what I have isn't simply an inspiration but "sponsorship" from something that has some degree of ego and conscious purpose. As to the nature of this "sponsor" I can only guess.
So how does one get more in tune with an anonymous higher power? Do you suppose that's what I've encountered, or am I just drawing on deeper reserves of my own energy than I thought I had? Established gods and religions have methods for working with them to affect change, but in this case I'm flying blind although I have the great boon of a "sponsor" that I have a high natural affinity for. How can I advance toward the level of understanding of someone who knows the identity and history of the power they're appealing to?
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I appreciate your time as this is a bit long-winded.
I've dedicated much of my life to an art, or some might call it a craft. A few years ago this practice led me to an awakening. I had worked for a long time to improve my abilities but always felt something eluded me. I went down many seldom-traveled paths, trying to find answers to my questions but for a long time every possible solution vanished like a mirage as I approached.
Eventually I went far down an obscure route paved by great practicioners from before. It appeared promising but I found that the path appeared to lead to a dead end. I had gone to one of the furthest, deepest places and found nothing. But then I realized a peculiar commonality between the distant place where I was and the place where my journey began, and at that moment I had an epiphany.
You could call it an encounter with the higher self, the genius, the holy guardian angel. That's the best way I can categorize it. In an instant I understood my art in its totality, along with the reasons for the difficulties I had and the path that I might take to overcome them. When I had this experience I knew that the road to the place I want to go will be long and hard, but that I now have a "North Star" I can follow to get there.
My question to you is: what types of magical practice make sense for me? The spiritual path I find myself on is idiosyncratic and individual - established religions and societies have never particularly appealed to me; they all feel like something made to fit someone else. These personal experiences have resonated with me much more than any "brand-name" deities and I seem to draw power from this genius the way that people describe petitioning gods. For example, when I'm attuned to the higher self and following its guidance I have effectively infinite motivation and can make sustained efforts that shock other people, who ask how I haven't collapsed. I've intuited that what I have isn't simply an inspiration but "sponsorship" from something that has some degree of ego and conscious purpose. As to the nature of this "sponsor" I can only guess.
So how does one get more in tune with an anonymous higher power? Do you suppose that's what I've encountered, or am I just drawing on deeper reserves of my own energy than I thought I had? Established gods and religions have methods for working with them to affect change, but in this case I'm flying blind although I have the great boon of a "sponsor" that I have a high natural affinity for. How can I advance toward the level of understanding of someone who knows the identity and history of the power they're appealing to?
Thanks again for reading.