Sorry to hear of your troubles in this area, joy is essential and I hope you can find ways to gain some back or find new ways.
A lot of this resonates with my experience and I can only share what I've had success and failure with to hopefully help.
Unfortunately I received the primary series for a host of reasons at the time, but have since leaned on that to emphasize out how ridiculous this has always been and how it keeps carrying on in strange ways.
I've had the experience of the complete stonewalling of vax topics too with people close to me that I've had to accept while finding opportunities to ask questions that undermine assumptions, but it is not yet at a point of reflection unfortunately. People I've found largely want to move along and block it out, which I'm finding more funny than anything, because they seriously are flabbergasted as to why the political opposition is still harping on the impact and decisions made of past 2-3 years when they weren't even complying with the policies.
I've accepted that other people's mental state and what leads to their thoughts and beliefs is so far out of my control that holding onto the fear, grief, and pain hurts me and them. Instead I'm trying to live through example, to be a consistent questioner and doubter of the latest thing, to not shy away from activities or whatever else has been made taboo in the past to show that you do not need to go along with this constant fear and can think for yourself. It takes two to speak the truth: one to speak and another to hear.
As for groups and participation, I've found it very fun to join new groups, coming in without the baggage of knowing the individuals and there past actions to help steer things in a more open direction, with relative success. Maybe sticking with the same ones for now is like not letting go of an ex? Maybe it's never really possible to get over it or at the very least more space is needed.
As for low level anxiety and depression, forums like this one have been empowering for me in terms of being more productive than ever (maybe not at my job but that's a different story), with everything going on there is a drive to do something, to not let fear steer us and to maybe discover new things or rediscover old ones in a different setting. But there is also the sense of when will the dam burst for my own life and eventually I loop back to the need for patience and to know that if we stick on the desire for something, we often aren't working towards those goals.
Hope this helps, it has been such a crazy few years that I'd be skeptical of anyone who didn't struggle at one point or the other
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A lot of this resonates with my experience and I can only share what I've had success and failure with to hopefully help.
Unfortunately I received the primary series for a host of reasons at the time, but have since leaned on that to emphasize out how ridiculous this has always been and how it keeps carrying on in strange ways.
I've had the experience of the complete stonewalling of vax topics too with people close to me that I've had to accept while finding opportunities to ask questions that undermine assumptions, but it is not yet at a point of reflection unfortunately. People I've found largely want to move along and block it out, which I'm finding more funny than anything, because they seriously are flabbergasted as to why the political opposition is still harping on the impact and decisions made of past 2-3 years when they weren't even complying with the policies.
I've accepted that other people's mental state and what leads to their thoughts and beliefs is so far out of my control that holding onto the fear, grief, and pain hurts me and them. Instead I'm trying to live through example, to be a consistent questioner and doubter of the latest thing, to not shy away from activities or whatever else has been made taboo in the past to show that you do not need to go along with this constant fear and can think for yourself. It takes two to speak the truth: one to speak and another to hear.
As for groups and participation, I've found it very fun to join new groups, coming in without the baggage of knowing the individuals and there past actions to help steer things in a more open direction, with relative success. Maybe sticking with the same ones for now is like not letting go of an ex? Maybe it's never really possible to get over it or at the very least more space is needed.
As for low level anxiety and depression, forums like this one have been empowering for me in terms of being more productive than ever (maybe not at my job but that's a different story), with everything going on there is a drive to do something, to not let fear steer us and to maybe discover new things or rediscover old ones in a different setting. But there is also the sense of when will the dam burst for my own life and eventually I loop back to the need for patience and to know that if we stick on the desire for something, we often aren't working towards those goals.
Hope this helps, it has been such a crazy few years that I'd be skeptical of anyone who didn't struggle at one point or the other