3) Yes, you should keep doing the practices, and I also suggest that you consider doing some daily journaling for a while. Write at the top of the page, "what scares me about Golden Dawn magic" and then let yourself write whatever comes into your mind, without editing or censoring anything. Do that daily for a couple of weeks and see if you can get to the personal issues that are helping to drive this.
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2) Yes.
3) Yes, you should keep doing the practices, and I also suggest that you consider doing some daily journaling for a while. Write at the top of the page, "what scares me about Golden Dawn magic" and then let yourself write whatever comes into your mind, without editing or censoring anything. Do that daily for a couple of weeks and see if you can get to the personal issues that are helping to drive this.