this is why i love your tenacity your ability to stay in it and search. you say things that i have to think on.

as for:

You're the most embrace-incarnation person I've ever come across and don't doubt for a second you've dowsed the state of people's minds and modes of pitching and selling. I am less than convinced though that that aligns in the end with tamanous-spirit. In hybrid times, sure.

i had to ask James what you mean and he says, "she says you're a force of nature the way i and others here have said it."

so he is hip to tamanous and Papa G here although he doesn't write on here or eco main anymore because he thinks JMG always misunderstands him so he doesn't bother anymore (we ALL have egos!).

after discussing whether we'll return to the stoic cowboy ethos in this land, James said: "as long as there is language and as long as there's way to leverage other people so that you can gain from them which is what civilization is all about, you're always gonna have people trying to convince people of something so they can gain power over them."


look, Temporary Reality- i don't know ANYTHING. i don't understand PEOPLE and what and why they do what they do. but all i know for sure is that the folks who're the kindest low-key understated secrets are often the most valuable gems hidden amongst us ALL.

i'm not that gem. i FIND you gems. i've been saved and lifted up by such gems. James is one such treasure for me.

everytime i've been fired or gone off on or attacked there are you secret quiet people who GET...?

i don't know WHAT you "get." but i know there isn't enough of your energy and wisdom in THIS world. so just as you gems see the crazy likes of ME, it is in MY BEST INTEREST to have gems like you ascend to your rightful place because you tend to be just, wise, patient, open-hearted, THOUGHTFUL... and more.

so that's MY pitch. my self interested-- VERY SELF INTERESTED-- pitch. more YOU. more of THAT that you bring here. the questioning tenacity understanding empathy ...FIGHT.

kind fight.

you are here long past when most would feel embarrassed and itchy because even in real life i won't let anyone dust away the conversation out of discomfort.

back to: EARLY AGREEMENT IS SUSPECT.

i WANNA know who you are now so's to cut down on fights and misunderstandings LATER. and i can best serve YOU, back. ya dig?

tell me who you are, make my head hurt with trying to understand. that's all training from Papa G's world.

and what's funny, it's all still self-interest. GOOD. then it makes sense, can come naturally once we learn it, and it's more INTERESTING to have you come back and insist on making yourself understood.

I WANT THAT FROM YOU.

and my pitch to you is: assume it's a good thing and fight to be heard because it's good for ALL of us. when you hide and take it out of politeness to be quiet and let things go on without you, we all lose out.

and look how boring it is "one" way.

thanks for wrangling on this with me, Temporary Reality. this is road trip stuff to me. you can't just run away from the hard conversations.

thanks thanks thanks.

erika