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Date: 2018-12-03 03:05 pm (UTC)
From: (Anonymous)
Hi JMG, thank you for providing this forum for questions.

I've lived in the same house since I was seven -- a family home built by my family on my father's family's land. Since those golden days, though, a lot has happened -- in my teens, my father was found to be cheating on my mother, there were many stormy years and then a rather ugly divorce. My older brother left and married and never really returned; my dad remarried and went to another state, and passed away from dementia several years ago. Both of my grandparents passed away and the land around us was all sold. My mom had two very short (under a year) marriages, but since then (2001) no one but she and I have lived in this house. We have struggled at times, emotionally, financially, and just with keeping the house up, but in the past ten years or so have done everything we could to make a happy, peaceful, comfortable home.

I give the background because the thing is, despite renovations and constant upkeep/improvements, the house has a way of... being uneasy. Leaky plumbing, major appliance failures, the kinds of things that make me have nightmares about disasters and get panic attacks every time some new issue is discovered. We love this house and property, but we went through some very dark days here and I can't help but wonder if the place itself is still unhappy somehow.

I've been reading here for about a month now, trying to pick up helpful things, and have started reading the Celtic Golden Dawn, though I haven't yet started practicing (waiting for the new moon.) Is there anything in particular I could incorporate into my practice to "make friends" with the house and property? Will the banishing LRP help get rid of some of the old negative "energy"? I know houses will always need upkeep, but it's the feeling around it that troubles me.

Thank you for your time and patience with my understanding - I am new at this!
Diane
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